Neptune conjunct Ascendant
This has a particularly powerful effect in your chart. You are likely to have an air of mystery in your appearance for you are an ethereal hard to pin down character and this may show in your dreamy eyes, you are likely to be exceptional in your talents as well. Gifts for muscianship or other art are indicated, or you may use your intuition in some other way to produce inspired work. You are likely to attract strange companions or associates and these links may go back to the past. You are highly aware of the motivations of people and can detect the causes behind events as well with your far seeing capabilities. You are aware of your self and your environment to a high degree and are very sensually aware as well. You are drawn to mysterious places as well as people. You will not fully understand your psychic gifts but they are there and you should follow your intutions where possible. You are liable to let your emotions get the better of you and be carried away blindly on infatuations and loose living where you do not take responsbility for yourself and indulge in affairs and romances where treachery and misfortune dog your steps or there is some other deceptive influence at work in the relationship.
Your natural way of approaching the world spontaneously is coloured by your upbringing, which has influenced you towards behaving according to how you were taught you ought to feel. You therefore spend a considerable amount of time trying to pick up the vibes, and to play the role you feel you should to fit the scene. While you may develop considerable ability to guess how people are feeling, at first the effect is to make you rather confused about where you end and the world begins. You would do well to define clearer boundaries for yourself, for you are likely to be too impressionable for your own good, and to imagine that the problems of other people are your responsibility. You may develop fine artistic and musical ability in time.
You’re so sensitive and impressionable that you have to develop some of Virgo’s discrimination so that you can choose to whom and to what you will be open. You have a difficult time seeing yourself clearly, and identify very easily with other people’s feelings or ideas, or with experiences in general. You’ll probably vacillate between idealistic and deluded views of yourself until you become more conscious or spiritually oriented. Theater, music, dance, art and the ocean attract you, and you may find self-expression in more than one of these. Many with this aspect need to be near the sea, at least periodically.
You have a strong need to pierce through the veil of matter and appearances and to get to the universal essence of everything in a feeling way. Alcohol and drugs are tempting in this regard, and you probably love their expansion and apparent freedom; but only the more demanding and longer road of spiritual discipline will reward you with your true self. Discrimination in this arena of your life is particularly important, for there are more charlatans in the spiritual world than there are in the world of business. You have chosen to surrender your personality and a lot of your ego in this incarnation to serve mankind and the universal force of evolution. You have a powerful imagination, but unless you have a strong Sun or Mars as well you will need to act as well as to dream.
